Just for the record, Lucas fell asleep an hour ago and I’ve spent the whole time trying to figure out how to use this new computer so that I could actually update my blog and not the 3 photos and 5 words that you all got a few days ago. My last personal computer was purchased in 2002 and didn’t have wireless internet and “Windows Home” and the work computer that I had been using was rocking Windows XP and Microsoft Office 2007. Now that I’m on Windows 8 with Office 2013, I feel like I’ve been driving a 1976 VW Beetle for years and Angel just handed me the keys to a Lexus with self parking capabilities. I know this machine can do so much more then I’m giving it credit for, but I’m spending hours trying to figure out where the gas cap is.
So an hour later, I at least know how to edit my photos and add my little website tag to them, which is more then I had the other day after I spent 30 minutes in Photoshop trying to open a file.
Two days ago, I took my little pooper to our “new” house and we got the keys!
I was excited to talk to the homeowner because she was a stay at home mom who was apparently extremely involved in mom groups and I wanted to pick her brain about where these such groups meet. A few minutes later, I learned that the group she was involved in was through her church and was a bible study with an elaborate day care that takes your kids for an hour or two while you’re in the study group. That’s not quite what I had in mind as a “mom group” so I politely passed and decided that I would just Google my options as soon as I learn how to use the internet on this computer.
Yesterday I went back to the house with Pooper and we had a few ladies from La-Z-Boy come by to measure the living room and give us some options for a couch to replace the disgustingly dirty one that came with Angel when I acquired him. Bachelor couch is not dog and baby friendly and we’ve been so impressed with the rocker from La-Z-Boy that we have in the nursery (or storage, whatever) that we decided to go see what they had. I’m pretty sure that the ladies didn’t take us seriously, but that’s the theme for this crap hole that we’ve moved to. Perhaps I’m just in the wrong parts of town (which is possible because I don’t know any better yet), but everyone looks at me and automatically assumes that I’m a struggling teen mom playing house. Most of the time it doesn’t get to me, but some times I just can’t take the looks and whispers because Angel and I have worked really hard for what we have and the ability for me to comfortably be a stay at home mom. But I digress. So yesterday when the ladies were leaving the house, the one was trying to see how serious we were about purchasing a couch and asked what our budget was and immediately started talking to me about financing options. When I said “I don’t think we’re interested in financing. We would just pay cash.” She was trying to suppress a laugh and then spent 15 minutes asking me how old I was without actually coming out to ask. I finally said “I’m 28.” and she replies with a “Wow! You look great!” And you look old. What’s your point? If I wasn’t getting this kind of discriminating looks and comments everywhere I went here like I’m living way beyond my means for purchasing both spaghetti noodles and spaghetti sauce at the same time I may actually be offended by the way that the lady was acting. But instead, I think I’m just (sadly) getting used to it since we’ve moved here. I miss the area we lived in and friends that we had who were all in the same position. I’ve never felt like I was in an elite income bracket until I moved here and it’s a really uncomfortable feeling. And then I get mad for feeling uncomfortable for what I have because again, we’ve worked really hard! So I just turn the other cheek and then try not to be snobby because I hate people like that, but it’s hard not to come across that way when the lady from La-Z-Boy is standing in my living room asking me how old I am and commenting on how nice the house is. Listen, bitch, sell me a couch or get out of my house. This feeling is really what I’m struggling the most with here and I hope it gets better when we move into the house which is supposed to be in a nice area full of families and stay at home moms.
In a lighter note, Lucas has been waking me up earlier and earlier and refusing to go back to sleep. Going are the days of sleeping until 10 and feeding him and going back to sleep. This morning I was looking for the snooze button on my human alarm clock and spent 5 minutes pressing his forehead but he wouldn’t shut up and go back to sleep. I’m going to have to take this back to the store.
So instead, I got up, made coffee, and dared to put Lucas in his Valentine’s Day outfit early. I call this a “dare” because he’s been blowing out his diaper and staining his clothes nearly every day. Angel and I assume this is a sign that we either forgot how to properly put on baby diapers, or Lucas is outgrowing them. I’m guessing option 2, so we’re going to finish up what we have, and then finally move on from the newborn diapers. In the mean time, here’s a photo of Lucas on his first Valentine’s Day (before he poops out of the outfit) while he lays on a changing pad without a cover because he pooped all over that and it’s in the washer. At this point, a drop cloth would be more appropriate for my house.
Angel is taking the three of us to dinner tonight in Kalamazoo and I’ll be sure to tell you all about it tomorrow because I need more practice on this computer and because I don’t have much else to do while I’m living in temp housing.
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